Insanity !!! Well if you are in no mood for a 'nagging me' do not proceed!

As hell!! people are turning into beasts, who are always hungry for another soul!!( naaah not the 'love' walla hunger) just makes me wonder how intolerable, insensitive, cold blooded, vicious, merciless, atrocious, appalling.... CRUEL the world around is getting!!
Today, on my way to office which is a decent 7 km ride.. i encounter this bus walla fellow. Now you see how these typical bus drivers are.. let me explain- these are the ones who think they look like Rajnikanth, who are foul mouthed, they think they own the goddamn world, they are the ones who are the racists!! chauvinistic retards with an IQ of one year old!! If someone is unable to speak their language then well... they have all the slangs registered in their pea sized brain !! bonehead, imbecile, gormless, moron, muttonhead, jerk, buffoon, dolt, stupid!!! aggggggrrr!! These are the ones who have all the freedom in the world to crash someone right under their huge bus wheel and yes... never be questioned!
The number of people the BMTC buses have killed is 89 in 2008, 82 in 2009, 90 in 2010 and 32 in 2011 (till July 31). Annnnnd the best to witness is two BMTC bus drivers struggling to get past each other. Wow, is it a race that has to be won and they shall be rewarded?? are they answerable to the lives taken by them?? do they undergo the pain of loosing someone dear?? such bloody animals!( mistake! they don't spare animals either)
But like outgoing Additional Commissioner of Police (Traffic and Security) Praveed Sood puts it: 'One cannot blame the BMTC'. Then in that case how many families can afford to loose saritha or vijay??
My ranting about these fools shall never end, but is there really that someone can do?? With the BMTC washing its hands off finding a solution to a grave problem, its notoriety for running killer buses will continue without being blamed or questioned. People like me might have an irritating or disturbed morning or evening because of these pin headed monsters but the people who face the loss.......... well its better unsaid.
AH SOMEBODY SAVE THE WORLD!!! :( This is making me utterly sad :(

A reverie of thoughts.. and a blank mind. A trance that could give you jitters, or take you away from the paradoxes of life. A sight so enchanting that could make you loose out on eternity, the very time when the conflicts between the devious & the angel strikes! Idealism is good when the hypothetical wonders, obscene realities, horrors and misdoings are evaluated.... It is the only place where the most weird dream, most impossible desire, most unestablished wiring of life feels realistic... the loose cords, the sip of your favorite coffee, a long and memorable drive, a long awaited "yes", an interesting book, a favorite old sweater, a scene from a favorite movie, some regrets, some smiles, some concerns, and lot more that completes the jig saw puzzle of our own life..
Just as myself, I am sure many enjoy the trance state to only rejuvenate and live those moments as real. The reverie of thoughts...... each and everyone I am sure has their own space for this eternal bliss... and if they don't! just get one.. :)

A feel good factor of sublime memories...........hmm special enough for each one of us! We all come across fairy tales heard and felt at some point of our lives. But living in one is a boon that not everyone is blessed with. Keeping the debates of the subjectivity of the paradoxes of classifying an event of categories of lives kept aside, I could have lived on this planet , only to leave a scar for the rest of my life, a scar i would have loved to carry for the lifetime!! 

Sometimes when I'm alone, I wonder

Is there a spell that I am under?

Keeping me from seeing the real thing?

Life Hurts...

But sometimes its a good hurt

And it feels like I'm alive.

Life Sings...

When it transcends the bad things

Have a heart and try me,

Cuz without love I won't survive.

Being indebted in way of your being, and being indebted with selfish ends are two hypothesis. Where one leads to lot of happiness and overwhelming the other to destruction! 

The existence of fairytales does not make any sense in the post modern, super real, technologically progressing world of ours. Yet the concept of fairy tales holds that importance it had always held centuries ago. It survives through people who beleive in them, and through those few people who incorporate these concepts of constructed characters like the wicked, the good, the heavenly, the unity of the chosen lovers in the end. We also tend to sometimes assume the roles we have built in our frame of thinking to fit into the concept of fairy tales! Haha !! supernaturally technical world of ours will never understand these concepts and nor will those "practical" buddies! cuz this is within all of us..... it is just the belief and faith....everything is possible ( atleast this is something the world believes in!) Debates will always continue between these two worlds!! its never ending....... :)  

Reasons!! reasons to cry, reasons to laugh, reasons to be angry, reasons to smile, reasons to feel shy, reasons to feel proud, reasons to hug, reasons......so much more!! there is so much versatality to our emotions, why not to the personality?? why do people want to only intake one charactestic of yours no matter how lovely or unreliable the other one is !! Expectations, morals, self respect, dignity, bla bla.... big terms na?? Of course they are ! cuz they are the ones that lead to a fall of any relation! be it parents, or love.....leaves nothing!! Ego... the biggest horror , can cause a tremendous change to the whole you! Honestly your not always lucky to have someone who is perfect!! gone are the times when fairy tales used to seem realistic!! Today, I wonder, what has gotten into mankind? Are they full of selfish ends? why dont one see his/her own faults and then retaliate about the disabilities and feelings of another human (irrespective of ur love or family or friends)

Its an absolute wonder to me, that relations are so amazing and fanatic initially..... why does it become difficult and irrelevant later on? honestly I feel blessed today!! I agree shit happens to each one of us... but how we get along with it is the bigger challenge. crying, breaking apart, feeling lost and depressed is not a  solution. Solution lies within ourselves.... does anyone really have the authority to question your existence? Absolutely no !! you are free individuals ...who are meant to be... a unique soul in itself.... If you truely love someone make sure you adapt yourself truely to their feelings and belongings... cuz remember, lilttle you do more you deserve and get. And then, when you love your true one immensely you are loving yourself truely!! Never let anything destroy you or your wonderful relations, cuz each one of us are blessed with true life partner and true loving family...  dont be blind to them... love all !!

What has a concrete base today?? got thinking?? well not even roads in Bangalore has concrete base today what more are we expecting from life? This is something I am sure everyone thinks every morning when it has rained the previous night! The pot holes, ditches, uneven road !! Nevertheless who lends a ear anyway! The important aspect hidden right here is the... relationships (free from potholes) in our life. It really makes me wonder as to how lucky could I get?! wonderful parents, brother, sister, friends, amd him !! To achieve such relations one needs to trust life and work upon relations. Ups and downs and bla blah... goes on !

It feels soo so amazing to see liltle school children marching on the road, screaming 'vande mataram' feeling all passionate like they own the world! Honestly it was a sight to witness! This makes me wonder what makes them so enthusiastic ? (may be missing the school ) but it did trigger me with this thought that what are we youngsters doing?? sitting back in our chairs getting updates from the television, worried how the life is going to be, some worried about their managers, some boy/girl friend, some wasting away, some busy with family!! what not... i really wonder what people are doing these days to grow!! work hard?? or the easier way around? (that is a secret) ! nevertheless, episodically if it had turned out that Anna was one among us then this liltle hope was foregone!!! My heart salutes this man... for it has been more than 8 days and the man hasn't eaten!! what kind of world are we living in? so much inhumanity? its a disgust up on the currupt men out there...cuz their peace is soon going to leave them! Bond up one and all.....dont march on the roads, dont scream if you wish........................................... but in some way be a part of the nation !!

Mondayyy mornings...where one should feel fresh, enthusiastic... everyone's busy cursing that the weekend is over!! I am definitely one of them ! But again the feeing that this week I need to achieve what I planned for boosts me up ! This could be due to umm inner motivation... which is rare in my case (ha ha) Of course for me, it is this special one who always motivates me ! Honestly the positivity which I always believed was a delusion to me, is no more a dreamscape but something that I genuinely rely on today. Of course that makes two ! One, the positivity... two, the very special one. It also makes me feel like a child who is being thought the values, of all aspects... that someday even I would grow as an Individual learning at every step foregoing the challenges and have a concrete base like all the successful people out there have today! It definitely makes your day when one important person in your life wishes you success and also tells you how much he/she believes in you ! And all you have to do is keep up that faith and do everything possible to bring a smile for them. I feel blessed to have one. Not to forget that, yes simultaneously there are people who are not very happy with your sucess, and yes being a sensitive human being you tend to feel low and doubt your capabilities.. what more would they want! Therefore , the positive side of this is that when such people do not make any difference to you why bother? Have a ... Screw you! attitude... and all will be well ! Feel blessed like I do................... cuz I'm sure everyone has that special one!!!

Well well well... everyday is not gloomy !! today had been just the perfect morning ! Doesn't it feel amazing ? when you have slept late but din really have to rush to get to work.... and the bonus is somebody unexpectedly drops you to your work place!! Yesss today is my day and I definitely feel wonderful and alive. So does it mean I could  bring some change today? hmmm may be move my chair today and readjust my desktop ! haha that is the only change I alone can bring ! Jokes apart, today is a perfect morning.. and I salute those thousands of men and women who never stopped their protest against corruption even after the heavy rains that followed! And today there is some sunshine... makes me wonder how long it would stay ! And like everyone I dont get to sleep on saturday mornings, but atleast I have something to cheer me up ! yes being lazy feels good but feelin energetic and charged up feels exceptionally brilliant ! Soo I am definitely motivated today.. which is a big deal in itself ! haha.... so let this day be a productive one for, the employees, employers (I say this cause I'm working today) friends, lovers, families, children, everyoneeeeeeee..

Its a very strange feeling ! everyday you wake up, for a new beginning for a new start and at the the end of the day its the same monotonous feeling.......... another day gone. I am not too sure as to how contrary this would sound, but I am just another individual who came across this feeling, days after days and finally decided there is nothing much that one can do about this whole routine!!!

Well, usually I am not the one who'd keep cribbing about the random happenings in and around the world, but yes there are certain things that in my opinion should be brought to everyone's notice. Of course I am not a writer, or a revolutionist, or a very famous personatily but I definitely am another individual who at least once felt the same as I do.. Honestly, the changing times have changed people so drastically!

I have no clue as to how rational this would sound.. but to my notice, there is very less humantiy left ! No its not me alone, its not that I am trying to polish my soul and tag somebody else as inhuman. How often does it happen that one of us come across an exceptional individual who wishes to help, notice, care ?? very rare!! Nevertheless, this very morning did depress me... Yes I have come across many poor people on signals, market places, bus stops, railway stations.... begging. But it really makes my insides churn, and question my own exixtence when I see extremely older people running bare-footed taking care of their grand children, buying grocery, trying to make a living by selling all sorts of merchandises. I feel helpless, is there really something that we can do ?? questions a many, answers none.

There's lot I wish to share, but not every start has an end there is a tomorrow...